According to my watch, it was little bit longer than 13.1, but who knows? My little watch has never lied to be before, so why would it start now, but whatever the actual milage was, I made the half marathon! The whole time I was running, all I could think was that I wasn't supposed to walk again. I had a doctor tell me that if I did walk again, I would be lucky if I could do so with a slight limp and most likely a cane or a crutch or even that dreaded walker, but here I am running and not just running from the house to the car because it's raining, but running long distances and running every day. I have yet to fully or even come close to understanding why the wreck happened and why I survived, but maybe, just maybe all my running will have something to do with it? I don't know. I had someone tell me no, tell me running wasn't something I could do and I heard that person, I listened, but I decided I would do what I thought I could do. The day I woke up from the wreck I told myself that this wreck would not define who I was. This wreck would not keep me from doing the things I wanted to do! My goal four 1/2 years ago was to run in a marathon and I did it! I did that yesterday and so now my next goal is to run in a full marathon! I make no disillusions that I will have to walk some of it...miles of it and that's okay! I want to get across that 26.2 mile finish line and smile and say I did it! I did what the doctors didn't believe in. I know it's not that they don't believe in me, it's just they look at the x-rays and in their medical mind don't believe in it. I will keep you all updated on this amazing journey I am on!
The other thing I thought about while running is how nice and supportive and encouraging all these runners are! There are so many different people out there running. But during those races we are all the same and we share the pain and the hardship of the races we are in and we encourage. The moment you think you can't go on, it never fails, someone gives you an encouraging word. Becky ran the race too and had stopped and decided to walk some and as soon as she did, someone was there to tell her that she could keep going and she did, she picked herself up and kept running. And while I was running on the longest hill I could imagine there were people on their way back down the hill that kept encouraging me, kept telling me to keep going and those words of encouragement made all the difference in the world!
I have to admit that I am not the quickest runner out there. My time is NEVER something to brag about! I have a hard time with it, but now that I can't train to be any faster, my foot simply will not allow it! So I have to try my best to push my competitiveness away! I grew up an athlete and a competitive athlete. An athlete that had to win at everything. So I see these people run by me and finish well before me and I want to be hard on myself, want to push myself more, but then I go back to the thought of....I wasn't supposed to walk. I have to remind myself of that numerous times on my runs. I think I need to make a running t-shirt that has the x-ray of my foot in all it's mangled mess and say this is why I run. They said no!
Disney Princess Half-Marathon is next! March 7th! Carter and I are going to go down early and spend the day at all the parks on the 6th (it's his birthday present, his birthday is the 3rd) and then I'll run on that Sunday! Very excited to run with Mickey and Goofy and all the Princesses!!!!!
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